SMILE! (well, as good as I can)
OK, so I had my first appointment with Dr. Gibberman and I cant wait to get the ball rolling. I have to admit, I was a nervous wreckabout an hour before I left work I started getting butterflies in my stomach. You know, the bad kind. The butterflies that make you think youre going to get sick. Guys, I gotta be honest here. Its been YEARS since Ive been to the dentist. You know that reaction you have when you get sick after eating at a restaurant? That signed in your own blood promise that you will never eat there again? Yeah, thats me and the dentist. One bad experience and I wrote them off. So the time comes and I get there. My nerves started to calm a bitit didnt even feel like a dentists office. The lighting was sort of warm, the décor was comfy meets chicyall, they had a coffee machine. Hey, I thought, this is actually pretty darn nice! The nerves calmed more when Jennifer greeted me with a big smile, and said, You must be Veronica! Wow, shes goodwhy cant the doctors office greet me that same way? After a few minutes (I was a little early) I met Dr. Gibberman. Hes pretty calm, cool, and collective. Ugh, I thought, let the badgering begin. Well folks, I was wrong. For starters he didnt crack the ruler against my knuckles for not being to the dentist in a while. Apparently Im not the only one who has a bad experience and swears them off forever. He first started off asking what I wanted, what do I want to get out of this. Huh??? A dentist who doesnt say, Like it or not, this is whats gonna happen!??? Hey, I like this guy already and Ive only know him for a minute! I want to be able to smile and not feel like its fake. I want to not want to turn my head shamelessly and sink in a hole every time someone says, The first thing I notice is someones smile,or Oh my God! Did you see how jacked up their mouth is? I NEVER show my teeth in picturesI dont think I have since the third grade. So Im stuck with the catch 22I feel fake when I dont show my teeth, and even more fake when I do. Overall, I flat out hate my big gaping, small teeth smile. So he had me smile really big so he could get a look at what he has to work with. He had me smile really big a few times. I told him how forced that felt, that smiling like that doesnt feel natural. He had me count to ten. He said, of course it doesnt, you dont even show your teeth when you talk. How bad is that people? I have become so accustomed to hiding my teeth, I have subconsciously modified the way I talk to hide them! That makes me feel kinda sad for myself. How much more have I hidden or modified because my teeth embarrass me? How many conversations have I dodged because I didnt want to take the chance of them seeing my gaps? How many pictures have I been unhappy with because my smile looks down right pathetic? Now Im ready to get into actionI dont want to feel like this anymore. Dr. Gibberman went on with what the action plan will be. First things firsta full exam. We gotta find out how deeply rooted this baby cuspate (I think thats what the term is), if there is even a root at all. Then we gotta see what kind of shape the permanent tooth is at that is up in my gums. Did you know that teeth that grow in your gums and never come out can actually grow cysts? Yeah, found that one out from the good doctor. Cysts that can actually cause cancer! Yikes!!! Depending on what kind of situation we got with that cuspate, I can either go full swing into veneers if things look rooted, or a 3 piece porcelain bridge if the tooth has gotta go. Either way, I cant wait. Im so freakin excited I could pee my pants. Well, not literally pee my pants, but you catch my drift. I am a conformed anti-dentist. You can quote me on thisI cant wait to go back to the dentist!